Worries

So as we all probably know by now I am a mother of two and the sole provider for my family sometimes life gets very stressful. I have been out for disability for a couple months and the stress of the finances are getting to me. Luckily my job offers me very good disability insurance and so we aren't as bad off as we would be. But I really wish I could get some assistance every once and a while to alleviate the stress. But I am a strong woman so I know I can handle anything but that doesn't mean I want to handle everything. On top of all that I have had a lot of other things thrown on my plate that is completely overwhelming I don't really want to talk about it here but just know that it has caused to me think a lot about "high beings" and karma and why things happen. I am not sure why bad things happen to good people. Are these people secretly bad and they are really good at hiding it? I don't think so, karma is supposed to be do good things good things happen, do bad things and you get it in the end. That doesn't seem to be happening either. So then I think about the "higher power" I have heard the saying he or she doesn't give you more than you can handle... Really? How much does he or she need to test people? Does he/she like to get people to the breaking point? I can't help but think its a sick game someone is sitting around playing. Ok so you have both type one and type two diabetes, I am gonna give someone the brilliant idea for a awesome medicine to help oh but wait you are going to be one of the 35 people to get pancreatitis and incurable disease that usually leads to pancreas cancer which is probably one of the most painful and untreatable cancers. Then on top of those things we are going to throw in a broken tailbone, bum knee, torn ligaments in the shoulder and then as they are recovering from shoulder surgery lets knock you down the stairs and have the anesthesiologist nick the wrong nerve in the other arm causing problems in that arm. This all happened to one person who I have known all my life and I can tell you I don't think they have done ANYTHING to deserve this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so angry and I know that doesn't help but WTF????? People like Charles Manson, Roman Polanski and the BTK killer all are sitting around healthy either avoiding jail by running around Paris making movies winning awards in Switzerland or rotting in jail for life which we have to pay for!!!!! Ok this is angering me more than calming me so I am going to stop here. I will continue to pray for those who need to be prayed for and give strength to those who need it. I hope you will all do the same.